love is a big illusion
i should try to forget

music used to me make forget everything
and brought happiness and light to me
but now it only brings me
the painful memories u left behind

Sunday, May 22, 2005

5:03 PM
but you never came...

i guess im forgetting him..


im not as dependent as before..
im no longer looking into his class everyday..
no longer crying to sleep..
no longer jealous seeing him with another gal...


i may be deceiving myself..
i dunno...
perhaps u pple out there could see better..
tell me what u guys saw..
if im realie forgetting him
or im juz not accepting the fact that i still love him..
that i just cannt forget him....


i tink im crushing somebody..
im not sure..
but
by right
i shldnt haf any reason to like him..
just chatted with him
that's all...
maybe its cosh of his determination..
his undying love for his gal..
i admire determine pple..
i guess im just lying to myself..
thinking that i realie need someone else to hlp me forget that jerk...
i dun tink im crushing him...
but i just have a feeling to wanna noe him better..
to understad him..
to be his very very close friend....


i dunno what im thinking of now...
i realie need pple out there who can see everything to tell me what's going on...
i need hlp....