i take back my words...
im still not forgetting him...
i msged him last night...
and the replies i got realie hurt me too deep..
worse than the time he broke with me..
he made me realised what a fool i am..
the 6th time we were together...
it was all fake...
that bloody piece of crap faked me...
he alreadie dint haf any more feelings for me..
but yet he stead with me..
what is this man?!
u tink im realie a toy izit?!
u were getting back with exther alreadie..
why the hell do u hafta lie to me..
why the hell did u still stead with me?!
u were thinking that i would feel better?!
thought that its better for me?!
shit hell NO....
i couldnt sleep..
stayed up till 2+..
ust couldnt sleep..
i tried closing my eyes..
but tears were the only stuff that resulted..
and the wet pillows...
i dun feel tired or sleepy anymore...
just couldnt sleep..
i got up...
went to the toilet and cut myself..
sorry friends..
i did that..
those were realie cuts...
i guess it is realie time to let go..
he told me that altho he n exther couldnt be together everyday
their feelings for each other has never changed..
i noe..
he realie loves her alot...
he's never gonna let her go anymore..
he lost her once..
i tink he had realie regretted...
i hope he would realie hold her tight and never let go...
dun hurt any more gals...
he said he love her with all his heart
and she love him with all her heart...
he could feel her love..
she could feel his....
i guess they would realie last...
i hope that they could last..
i noe i'll regret what i said..
but i realie dun wan another gal to receive the kinda hurt i did...
he said he isnt realie a flirt like what others see him..
i noe...
i can tell...
he said he dint treat me like how he treated his other gals..
i noe...
i can feel...
u never treated me as ur gal...
u never woke me up before it was all too late...
u shld have...
at least give me time to make it up...
give me time to try again...
but u never woken me up till now...
till now that it was all too late...
WHY?
am i realie not worth waking up?
not worth u giving me time to realise the hurt i actualie did to u?!
i dun wanna tink too much....
i realie wanna thank another guy...
he duno im doing this...
he dint noe he actualie did this...
he cheered me up when i was down..
he encouraged me...
he made me realise im not the only fool who believes in love..
he made me realise that guys can also be determine when it comes to love..
he made my heart feel lighter this morning...
when he came up to me...
im sorry..
i was in a daze...
thinking of what that happened laz night...
i realie dint noe it as u....
THANKS ULRIC...
u dint noe u actualie did so much changes in my life did u?
hahaX~
THANK YOU....
