A friend gave me inspiration to write this entry..
and i gota make this clear that im not aiming at anybody...
Sometimes i wonder if the world is really wad it seems like. People believing in kindness, compassion, eternity and starting afresh. All these are just for show, rite? There are times when all these are portrayed, but wad KC once said is rite. 'You gota be responsible for our own words and actions.' yeah i agree, and i noe. You can never take back our words. Cos wad's done's done. Whether you meant wad u said or not, whether its just comments that never went through thinking. The scar is already there, and it will be there. Even if 'forget everything' was said, and 'starting afresh' was done, things will never be the same again...
People always want chances to be given, and they blame it on everything else when things aint wad they expected. That's human nature -- of cos, with the exception of some. But they dun bother to give others a chance to 'start all over again' and 'take back wad they've said/done' when they ask for a chance. People often say 'u're forgiven' and tell themselves to forget what was done, but how many actually put in the effort to forget..? You tell urself that if i can forget, i forget; if i can't den its just too bad. But if you pay no attention to your wound and heck care it, there's bound to haf a scar.
Quarels helps to close the gap in a relationship, but half of the time the relationship turns sour. Cos that incident haf left some kind of prejudism in you. I know it's very difficult to fully forget and start all over again, I wun be able to do that too. But we all need to view things from a different perspective. The person might have reasons for doing so...you pple may think that it's an excuse, but please everyone, think optimistic and think positive...
To you guys know who you are:
I duno why is that book hibernating. But i dun tink it's a good sign, rite... It was the start of our friendship and our understanding. I dun want it to rot in that stinking locker. Amanda sorta gave me a punch in the face when she asked me a question which i first thot it to be silly and stupid, but after that begin to think really hard. She asked if we quarelled AGAIN. I thot she was being her 'usual self' again by asking such a question. But i think she had been too not-herself went she asked. Cos to think of it, we are really acting like strangers and not toking. Guess she's thinking too complicated and too far, i duno. We are all changing now, no longer like before... ... ...
To some people out there who hates me to the core and thinks im jus an extra piece of shit, this entry may be just and equally irrelevant post as i am..and I've got nothing to say. You may think that im trying to be some hypocrite by trying my very best to tok chim (and is soo not chim), but i just wana say that im not always 24/7 that RACHEL YANG you noe. Rachel yang has many different sides. If you only choose to remember and take note of that ONE side of me, den i tink your life is so miserable. Cos that means you never got to see the 'miracle' that others had seen : the OTHER side of me...
Pride betrays your soul...
