what her damned fucking problem man... oso dunnid her to pay, whole day only know how to tok abt $$, its enuf alrdy la, i had enuf alrdy...

stop trying to control MY LIFE ok, i dun nid that. u wan ur face, i wan my respect. u can scream the shit out of u in front of my frens and im not allowed to shout at u... come on la, i dun believe in that, i have my own freedom of speech.

someone just finish my off all at once la, i cant take it anymore, living in this world, nothing for me to smile... just totally pissed off, EVERYTHING pisses me off. wads the point of being somewhere where nobody gives a fuck about u, thinks ur existence is rubbish, is a mistake, im just another maid of urs, there to cheer u up when ure dwn, swallow all the scolding when ure upset, do all the work when ure tired, and get nothing in return but more scolding from u, just for being wad i am.

its just another cold world la, its the truth. nobody there when ure dwn, nobody gives a fuck how ure feeling, nobody cares, nobody to cheer u up, nobody to hlp share ur burden when ure exhausted, nobody to listen u trash out, nobody realises ure stress up, nobody understands me.

wad izit that u wan from me? does torturing me gives u the pleasure? being cold to me right after u gave me a hug?

wad do u wan? stress me up till i kill myself?! if u think my existence is a mistake, just finish me off, and u'll go up to heaven. stop pushing me.

sec 2 was streaming, u pushed me, hoping tt i can get into triple science, be a great doc when i grow up, not realising tt i hate docs, i hate the smell of medicine, and i cant stand the sight of blood. u said after ur streaming u can do wad u wan, jus study for now, and i did.

after tt was sec 3, u wan me to study hard, cos its the basics, im supposed to mug till i cry out loud? den? sec 4, my Os, im supposed to shut myself up in the room without ANY form of technology, just my brains and my books. den? wads nxt? do i really get the break u promised me since sec1? no, u'll jus say tt i needa brush up more to get myself fit in to tjc. den there's promos in j1, den there's As in j2, den? i gota make sure i get into the U, even if i dun, i will hafta make sure i get in somehow. den? mug my whole life away in the U. den? there goes the childhood, the teenage years, and here comes the adulthood, den im old enuf to pay my own bills, old enuf to take care of the family, old enuf to hlp u out, but i'll nvr be old enuf to make my own decisions.

im supposed to be hell responsible for my own learning, if i dun study, its my problem, YOU said it, and so now, why the hell are u trying to control my life? im supposed to study 24/7 izit?

come on, gime a break, just hlp me leave this place, i had enuf. so wad happens now? the only time i can be left alone, the only time when nobody shouts at me, nobody interferes with my stuff, is when i close my eyes and slp forever. rite?

so somebody just kill me, release me from hell and u'll go up to heaven, i'll bless u...